Listening to Gran Torino by Clint Eastwood, someone left in the comment saying his is a legendary as much as John Cash’s Hurt. I look out for Hurt. I don’t either the song or the singer. But here it is to share it with you. I did have these feelings described in the song before. That’s a very deep grief in the soul. Sometimes, same kind of feeling can come back haunt if not by the grace of God one lives.
Lyric
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirtI will let you down
I will make you hurtI wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar’s chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right herewhat have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirtI will let you down
I will make you hurtif I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
What I read about in Augustine today:
It is possible to guard against sin, but by the help of Him who cannot be deceived. For this very circumstance has much to do with guarding against sin that we can unfeignedly say,
Forgive us our debt, as we forgive our debtors.Matthew 6:12 Now there are two ways whereby, even in bodily maladies, the evil is guarded against—to prevent its occurrence, and, if it happen, to secure a speedy cure. To prevent its occurrence, we may find precaution in the prayer,Lead us not into temptation;to secure the prompt remedy, we have the resource in the prayer,Forgive us our debts.Whether then the danger only threaten or be inherent, it may be guarded against.Augustine, On Nature and Grace, Extract from Augustine’s Retractions (Book II, Chapter 42), Chapter 80 [LXVII.]— Augustine Himself. Two Methods Whereby Sins, Like Diseases, are Guarded Against
About the damage we have inflicted on ourselves, he says,
Behold what damage the disobedience of the will has inflicted on man’s nature! Let him be permitted to pray that he may be healed! Why need he presume so much on the capacity of his nature? It is wounded, hurt, damaged, destroyed. It is a true confession of its weakness, not a false defence of its capacity, that it stands in need of. It requires the grace of God, not that it may be made, but that it may be re-made.
Augustine, On Nature and Grace, Extract from Augustine’s Retractions (Book II, Chapter 42),Chapter 62.— Concerning What Grace of God is Here Under Discussion. The Ungodly Man, When Dying, is Not Delivered from Concupiscence
Have mercy on us, Lord.
