Reading A Soul Under Siege: Surviving Clergy Depression, I admit that I myself also suffer from depression. The depression has been with me well before I became a minister. There are other areas in my life which seem to be equally ill and need help. Years of effort to live good do not help at all to cure but intensify the sickness.
Learn to live, learn to know myself and accept my frailty, limitations, guilt, sinful nature, flaws, emotions, desires with a touch of grace will be something more important then making myself look good and look more successful in intelligent development and career.